It just takes time and effort, and most importantly, changes to your understanding of DP and to your life. You yearn to one day wake up and completely forget this ever happened to you.įor those with DP, unfortunately, you're probably not going to suddenly wake up and find yourself cured overnight. You start to worry if this will become permanent. The love and affection you felt for your kids might suddenly go missing. Life with DP can seem devoid of simple pleasures. It was as if I was staring at a stranger. When I looked into the mirror, I couldn’t feel a connection to my own reflection. When I spoke, it was as if the words coming out of my mouth were not mine. It felt as if I was looking at the world from a third-person perspective -like living inside a movie. As someone who personally struggled with DP for years, I can tell you how bizarre the symptoms were. I really hope this helps someone who sees this.Depersonalization (DP) disorder is an incredibly scary and unpleasant mental health issue. I won't say I'm glad it happened, but I am certainly stronger for it. And you are not the only person suffering this way. I know at the time of an attack it may seem like it will never end, but I promise you, by being on here and looking for answers you have taken the first step by acknowledging this. This week I have attended all of my classes, I have managed to brave public transport, and I haven't taken any valium since. Two weeks ago I went to see a Psych, *link removed - if interested in location, PM this poster*. I was afraid of everything.Įventually this lead me to spiral into a deep depression and I began to have suicidal thoughts, as I saw no way out of this. Everywhere I was the thoughts came to me. I couldn't go to school, I couldn't leave the house, I couldn't be alone. I was on valium quite heavily, but refused to acknowledge that my Existential OCD was an issues, and that I was suffering constant anxiety. I had to be sedated, and for a few months was not able to function. I have had these thoughts since I was 6 years old, and had been able to dismiss them for my entire life, until one day, five months ago, after a week full of triggers, I snapped and was thrown into the worst panic attack of my life (aside from a bad trip months earlier which may or may not have been a factor). Hi, I don't know if anyone will see this, but I know this is the kind of thing I wish I'd seen 5 months ago when I suffered a servere breakdown due to a climax in my own existential OCD. Posts: 100 Joined: Tue 3:11 am Local time: Thu 4:14 pm Blog: View Blog (0) Here is a site that has some that I'm actually doing right now. I'm not very good with words or explanations but I started doing meditation which is where a lot of this came from. I have so much more control over my mind. I'm not completely cured though and sometimes I'll become paranoid but it's not nearly as bad as it was just two months ago. I can actually look at the world and think about it possibly not being real and I have very little negative emotions connected with it. I've realized when I stopped caring whether this was real or not my mind calmed significantly. Just let it the thought flow over you but create positive thoughts and emotions. I'm not saying to force the negative away but not to focus on it. I think in the moment before you let the depression take hold you should have calmed down and took some deep breaths and thought of something else. Today I looked at my toilet and said omg what if this is an illusion, and it sent me into depression immediately. As of now I have nothing to counter these thoughts or the fear they carry. Jjgiii Can you elaborate on your coping techniques.
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